Not so good

Today, I had my post-op doctors appointment which I was not really worried about.....However, I did not get the best news.

Good news:  My surgery went well and I am healing well.  My doctor got all of my scar tissue out....

Bad news:  There is a lot of damage to my left fallopian tube and it is twisted.  My doctor told me today that I probably will not be able to get pregnant again due to the amount of damage.  He does not want us trying to get pregnant for at least 6 months.  He said that when we decide we want to try to get pregnant that I will need to have some test done to see if my fallopian tube is open or closed.  If it is open, then we can attempt to get pregnant (but as soon as I get pregnant we have to go in for testing to make sure it is not a tubal pregnancy).  If it is closed, then getting pregnant naturally is not an option.  If it is closed, we might have to consider IVF.  If we have to do IVF, then I would have to have surgery again to remove my left fallopian tube in order to have the fertilized egg planted in my uterus.

Let me tell you.  I NEVER thought I would be in this position.  I have cried a lot.  I am pretty sure that I am in shock.  I NEVER thought that I would be a 27 year old who has already had 2 tumors and her ovary/fallopian tube removed AND will probably not be able to get pregnant again.  It is overwhelming.  My dad told me to focus on getting healthy and to think about the positives in my life.  I am trying REALLY hard to focus on the positives but honestly that is really difficult at this point.  Maybe tomorrow will be better!

Positives
My beautiful baby boy
My wonderful husband
My awesome family
I have a job
I live in an awesome place
We might be buying a house
Pick up lines make me happy
This summer will hopefully be awesome
We bought a camper so camping is going to be amazing
We have some awesome people in our lives
The show "The Big Bang Theory" never fails to make me giggle
The smell of the bacon my husband is cooking